This year, I celebrated my 27 th birthday.
I took a good look at my celebration party full of
people smiling, dancing, enjoying themselves with
the music and food for the occasion. Standing
there, in a split instance, it occured to me that
when they leave I would be alone for the rest of
day/night.
So I ask myself, if not for any thing, today I'm
supposed to have a special guy right here. Then I
started writing down the names of all my exes.
Wow! The list was endless.
I got deflowered (disvirgined) in May 2005. The
guy was nice and also good looking. About
7months later, he got a visa and travelled to
Spain and that was that.
Later I met Michael. Two months later he
travelled to Burkina Faso, but we were
communicating until he lost his phone.
And then I met Mide, based here in Nigeria. But
later the relationship got sour... and so on. (Mind
you, many of the guys did not travel out)...
Back then I thought it was spiritual so I went to
Mountain of Fire and Redeemed camps for
prayers. In addition, I always pray for myself and
the guy I'm with, yet men just walk in and out of
my life without any serious quarrel or fight.
I am young, beautiful and intelligent; a university
graduate, hardworking and respectful. I am not
demanding financially and otherwise, so what
then is the problem...
But now, concerning this aspect of my life I want
to make a new year resolution but I don't know
where or what to resolve. Also, will i be able to
keep my new year resolutions?
Please help me and don't judge me. It is hard to
let it out.
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